Motherhood Is Tough Sometimes

...and exhausting and draining and tiring...

I love Briana with all my heart and soul. I can't imagine my life without her. She is my pride and joy. Now with that being said, she has been kind of difficult for the past few days. I always told myself that I would never complain about anything once I had my baby home with me. Well, that was just stupid. I am human - I get tired - and I guess it isn't normal not to get frustrated at times.

And the last few days have been frustrating and tiring. Honestly, Briana is such a good girl. I am so lucky. She is an angel when eating in restaurants, she plays well with other kids, she laughs a lot and she actually does listen to me (well most of the time). She can go for weeks without giving me much trouble at all. But then all of a sudden, something bugs her and she gets all "out of sorts" for a couple of days. She tries to push my buttons and push the envelope. She cries and whines when she doesn't get what she wants. Fussy is a good way to describe it. This behavior is pretty unusual for her, and it can be very exhausting and frustrating for me.

Sunday, my poor baby woke up with a fever. And she was sluggish and irritable for a lot of the day. After her afternoon nap, she was cranky. Now when it comes to TV, she has the attention span of about 10 minutes tops. But on Sunday, not knowing what else to do, I put on "Toy Story" to see what would happen. She watched the whole thing as she lied on my lap on my bed. I knew something was up with her. I gave her a little Tylenol in the morning and Motrin in the afternoon and by the end of the day, the fever went down.

Then Monday came. Again, she was not acting like herself all morning but no fever luckily. Kind of irritable. She woke up from her afternoon nap and was really upset. She cried and carried on for about 45 minutes. Nothing I did could console her. Finally, she calmed down and drank a little juice. But by then, my nerves were shot.

Tuesday morning...she started to cry when I took her out of the car to go into the grocery store. I thought once I took her out of the car she would be ok. Nope. Back in the car and headed home. She was fine on the way home, so I turned back around in my driveway and went back to the store. She was fine the second time around. Thank goodness. So weird.

Briana did much better today. She tested me a couple of times, but nothing too bad and nothing I couldn't handle. At Briana's music class, Deb and Lisa suggested that Bri might be teething - getting her two year molars. It is very possible. She came to me with eight teeth at a year old, so those molars could be coming in early. I have noticed her gnawing on things a little and actually, she has been more fussy in the food department the last few days.

Ironically, she has done fantastic with the time change. I started moving up things by about a half an hour for a few days before the time change - nap, bath, etc. So, she is already on track with daylight saving time.

So, this is today's post. I want my blog to be real and honest, so I have to talk about the good and not so good. To end this on a light note, I love my beautiful Briana, I love being a mom and I love my life. And right now, I'd really love to be asleep. Good night everyone...