Yep - I abandoned my blog once again a month ago - just when I was on a roll posting too! I got sick - again. I am so sick of being sick. I am sick of myself having to say that - over and over again. I'm grateful that I don't have illnesses that threaten my life, but I get long, weird illnesses that affect my ability to function normally. I guess you can say I am a chronic sick person. How sucky is that?
I wrote an update on FB a couple of weeks ago because I wasn't posting there often either...
So if you are my FB friend, you kind of already know what has been going on with me.
I'll try to make a long story short. In mid-August, I started having issues with burning and soreness in my left tonsil. After weeks of suffering and several doctors visits, I discovered I had hidden tonsil stones (mostly likely due to having very deep crevices in my tonsils according to my ENT - lucky me.) I got them out (I had to), but in the process, I severely irritated my tonsil in the process.
From there, I had weeks of irritation and discomfort around my tonsil. After weeks of being pretty uncomfortable, my whole mouth became totally inflamed toward the end of September. It was terrible. I had some sort of mouth virus/uvulitis attack. It is some of the worst pain I've ever felt. My doctors are not sure if it was triggered by the irritated tonsil or just bad luck, but I am pretty sure it is the former (or both). It is all just too weird.
I am feeling a lot better now, but I do notice after I eat certain foods, my throat is still a bit sore. My mouth looks a lot better, but it still looks raw in some areas. I am just hoping for total healing very soon. I am also armed with directions/tools now to help me try to keep any tonsil issues at bay. If I can't keep them at bay, my ENT did mention me getting a tonsillectomy, but I don't want to go there if I don't have to. It is a very tough surgery for someone my age.
One Sunday, I was starting to feel better and I was watching the rain fall from my screened porch (it was the remnants of Hurricane Nate)...
I had a bowl of soup in one of my favorite bowls (vegetable barley, from a can from Wolfgang Puck - it's really good)...
And after I ate the soup, my throat started hurting. Sigh. But at least I was able to sit on the porch for the first time in a while and relax a little.
When I first started getting sick, Bri surprised me with this note...
Even though I was sick, I really, really tried to keep going when I could. I trekked through an apple orchard with a smile on my face, not feeling my best, but I did it for my kid. But, Bri still knew I was struggling. She sadly saw me break down a few times over the last couple of months.
I had a tough weekend with Bri last weekend. She was throwing around a lot of attitude and was just not herself. She and I had a very long talk on Sunday and she admitted that middle school was stressful for her and it was hard dealing with me being sick for so long.
Starting a brand new school and having a sick mom on top of it (plus throw in some tween hormones) has to be so overwhelming. She held in her feelings for a long time. I think she just kind of exploded over the weekend. After our talk, it was like a weight was lifted off of her and she seemed in better spirits. And now that I am feeling better - that definitely helps too.
On my worst day of being sick in early October, I had to still drive Bri to soccer practice (Doug was on an important business trip). I saw this beautiful sunset and it gave me a glimmer of hope that there was a light at the end of the tunnel for this (hopefully)...
It's been so difficult for me because at the exact same time last year, I was dealing with my sinus infection from hell (affecting my taste and smell) - which lasted months. I really wanted this fall to be better. I am grateful I am finally feeling a bit better, but it stinks it had to happen around the same time.
Being so uncomfortable for so long, I had a hard time talking and just plain concentrating on things. I started feeling disconnected from life. Thank goodness for television because that is about the only thing that could kind of keep my mind somewhat occupied.
Being so uncomfortable for so long, I had a hard time talking and just plain concentrating on things. I started feeling disconnected from life. Thank goodness for television because that is about the only thing that could kind of keep my mind somewhat occupied.
I have a lot to blog about, despite that fact I was out of commission for so long. I have school updates and soccer updates. Bri did manage to have a fun fall break too. Lots of stuff to talk about.
Be ready for the posts to start coming again!
