Grieving and Traumatized

  I am traumatized and grieving pretty hard right now. Between what happened on Tuesday mixed with trying to recover from this really tough surgery and also learning to live daily life without my child in my home every day - I feel like I am drowning a bit. And the thought of having that vile lunatic back in the presidency in January with absolutely no guardrails makes my stomach turn every time I think about it. I pray he doesn't completely dismantle our democracy, and it saddens me that over half of the country seems perfectly ok with autocratic rule. Who knew? I feel frozen in so many ways. I can't even go outside and take a walk because of my physical situation. So, I am literally forced to sit with all this. I always try to say that "next year will be better," but in this instance, I truly can't. I am living in a country that I'm not proud of right now. And I'm not sure how long it will take me to completely recover from this surgery. I obviously have no choice to continue forward, but I'm letting everyone know it will be with a heavy heart for a very long time.